Results

Last night after dinner I got an email from my neurologist. Negative. It actually said this: “Normal results with no evidence of multiple sclerosis on this test.”  It was what I expected, but I didn’t expect to sob like a baby. I dropped my...
Surrender, Again

Surrender, Again

I’ve had my spinal tap/lumbar puncture- which was, as things like that go, quite fine. The worst part, besides getting a needle stuck deep into my spine, was laying down face first on this bench-ish thing with my pants halfway down my fanny. Duke is a teaching...

The Work of Reality

What a relief- to blurb and bleat all of my inner dialogue out into the world. Like sharing a too big secret, today things don’t seem so big. They are the same, but manageable again. Something I know about myself is that I am not good at asking for help,...

Today

Something happened to me at acupuncture today. I realized I’m doing the thing I do: going backwards when I’m starting to head forwards. Goddammit. So, I’ve been going to acupuncture for about 4 months now. It has helped my double vision. It has given...

Slowly

I’ve had a couple of oh wow moments this week- I’m reading this book and this book and both are so much food for thought that I’ve just been reading voraciously and trying to get into my head space but totally out of my head...