Once again, here’s where you can post about something or things that was high five-able about your week. It/they can be big or small or even medium. And you can include your days/weeks/months/years sober too. And I will shower you with friendly words of encouragement.
Since I’m here right now, I’ll go first.
Some people will say I’m crazy, and if you did, well…that might be like you knew me. Lucky for me crazy means silly and off the wall instead of I need an army of therapists. (Hmmm. I might, however, need those too.) BUT! I gave up sugar this week. I ate too many Christmas goodies and I was getting a bit doughy. (wahn wahn wahn… ba dum bum)
Sugar was making me feel like shit. I, however, just kept right on shoving cookies into my mouth night and day. (No need to wait for 5 o’clock for cookies!) I’d have two or three when I got home from work. Then four or five after dinner. Then another three or five before I went up to bed. (*note: I go to bed about 8:30 or 9:00. Not a lot of time between dinner and heading upstairs. I was out of control!) The wine was gone, and in it’s place…
I started to feel like this:
(Impetus behind cookie bingeing: I read in one of my I-got-sober memoirs that she ate candy in bed every night and it helped. So this was my excuse. It sounds familiar, right? Weeeeelllllll….other people can drink a few times a week/eat candy in bed every night and be fine…I’m sure it’s OK for me too.) But myself was not buying it.
Y’all, there’s this part of me now that sticks up for me. It whispers, “Hey. Hold up. Don’t do that. That will make you feel like crap- in your bod and in your head.” And then there’s this part of me that listens. They cooperate to make sure I keep feeling good. Oh.
I had to sit here for a while and think on that. Twenty-four days sober today. High five.