I had an idea to make a Soberbia Instagram page. So I did it.
You can find it there with this: s.o.b.e.r.b.i.a
I was two and a half years sober yesterday. This Brian Andreas picture hangs on the wall at 6 1/2 year old height outside my sons’ room. It says:
“There has never been a day when I have not been proud of you, I said, though some days I’m louder about other stuff so it’s easy to miss that.”
With two and a half years has come more quiet, and more proud. I’m more apt to notice how proud I am rather than henpeck tiny mistakes imagined or real. I got down on my knees in the woods yesterday by my tree and gave prayer and thanks- thanks to the woods, thanks to my spirit, thanks to myself, thanks to all of my sobriety, to my family, to my heart. I find that with all this gratitude comes humility- a sense of being huge and small all at once. A sense of belonging in the world and to the world that is still so new to me. The last six months have been especially transformative- I suspect it’s because I decided to be in charge of my life again. Not in control, in charge. There have been so many days in my life when I have not been proud of me. But now I’m much louder about the other stuff, so it’s easier to miss that.